I don't even know, to be honest. I was honored to be with loved and special families, with whom I've worked before, during their baby's birth. I adventured with my family on our road trip to Utah, Colorado and Arizona. I supported families after the birth of their little one, and I continued to teach childbirth education at the local hospital.
But...but...I had these big moments where I needed to retreat. I needed to decline interviews and declare I was stepping away from birth work. I contemplated my work and personal daily routine, now that my youngest was in kindergarten. Similar to having my first baby and becoming a mother, I just didn't feel prepared for my new normal. It has taken months for me to feel more grounded and settled, and though it was challenging at times, it has been so worth it.
So, it's January 2019 and I'm fighting the itch to declare this is the year to _____. Because when I really consider what it is I want from 2019, it's to feel connected to others, authentic in my relationships and mindfully living. It can feel challenging not to tell myself this is the year! I will finally be the person I've always hoped to become! Because setting myself up for such an expectation just doesn't feel right.
Here's to a new year, honoring where you've been, where you are and where you're headed.